but but yeah...
Dearest Sarah,
(I hope I don't sound too mean because I really want to voice out what I feel now and I hope you won't get offended.
And I wonder if I should post it here or email you. Tsk. )
About the whole passion for band dying down thing. (Since I'm going to graduate, I'm just going to say it all.) My passion died down too. Whose passion didn't die down. Valerie Gay, I'm sure yours did too. From writing 'NYCB' on every possible surface (which includes things like the concrete floor infront of the track wtc.) in sec one to thinking of all kinds of reasons to pon band in sec four, I can't deny that my passion didn't stayed the same throughout my whole time in band. But I still stayed together with the band until now, no? Ah I don't know what point I'm trying to get across but I hope you'll get it that once you start with band, it's only responsible that you stick with it and pull through to the very end. Together.
Also, something
did happen when you were missing pracs during that period of time - seconds totally didn't have enough volume to balance the thirds and first. And, I feel that it's a little selfish to just leave like that since the seniors really had a hard time trying to put everyone into place to balance the whole trombone's sound and I guess the next batch will have to do it all over again once you leave.
(Grah was that too straightforward?)And next year is SYF and you're quitting?! You might think that your playing is not up to standard. But really (from the bottom of my liver,) your playing IS good. It might not be the best but it is so much better than mine (ask my batchies about my playing when I was in trumpets. It was er.. horrible). So even though you might think that your playing will not benefit the band, you have to know that every player counts.
I know that saying all these will not change your mind on quitting and I'm not trying to make you feel bad for leaving or whatsoever but I hope you'll understand that we did appreciate all you've done for band all this while.
AHHH this post is so unorganized and I doubt anyone can make any sense out of this (my mind is all too messed up thinking that you are quitting band. *dramatic sigh) BUT ANYWAYS, I need you to know that I'm not angry or mad. But I guess I'm just sad that you are quitting. Hm, lastly, thank-you for everything you've done for trombones and band these 3 years yah! :D
I LOVE YOU SARAH LEE! <3
&loveTROMBONES; 6:33 pm
HELLOOOOOO TROMBONEZX.SARAH here. Yes, it is sooo uber unlikely that I would post something in here but yes I did. (: Coz' I guess next year I wouldn't be part of this place anymore. I'm so super duper sorry NYCB, but yes I'm quitting. I've been thinking about quitting for the longest time and I guess this is ittt. I've not been a very good senior/junior for the past 3 years in band but I think I did my best? I don't know, I just had this veryveryvery great passion for band which just worn out over the years because I'm getting sosososo tired being in band... I just can't cope. Yes I'm lousy and stuff. Sometimes, I just feel too alone... (I know it does sound stupid) Like who am I doing this for? You know... I just can't see myself carrying on in band anymore. But oh well, I guess I'm not really bonded to band either. NYCB has helped me loads in my life though, like it made me more outspoken... made me know music more... I really came into band as the quietest girl on earth (I think). Andddd I won't ever forget Japan where I was having a heart attack on stage. I'm glad I did at least SOMETHING for band... (:
Um, and I'm also sorry that I wouldn't be there contributing to next year's SYF effort (
the GWH effort). Although I really really would like to be there to share the spirit, but I truly think that if I were to be in band for another year, I'd probably flunk everything and die of exhaustion. And even though I'm already Sec3 (where everyone's pro), my playing honestly still sucks so I won't be of benefit if I continue on. I mean come on, I've been absent from band for longest periods of time and nothing happened, right? I also regret that I'm not gonna be there for next year's passing down. But it really is the best for everyone (: (I really put loads of thought into this so I'm not gonna change my mind)
Actually in Sec2 I was already advised to quit band but I just really didn't want to do it... I just felt that maybe I could just do it magically, somehow. But today I realize I have to. /:
Just to make it clear, I really have no problems with anyone in band. It's just me, alright? I hope and wish the bezt for NYTBONES. Stay the second largest section and pwn the band okay?
I don't know if I regret joining band or if this post is just so superficial (like I should just shut up and quit)... But I just want to say I'm veryveryvery sorry and goodbye (not) forever.
♡
(Sorry the junior juniors weren't there yet... use a little imagination ^^)
I'll miss each and everyone of you.
&loveTROMBONES; 7:55 pm
hello my lovely section :D how's band? :D
roar i miss you all really badly!
shall try to get nice souveniors for you all but but but there's really nothing much here haha
ok this is such a random post.
val>eh o's over already! i hope you've returned your uniform :D
boo i hope you're all doing fine. jiayou forchoral and drama night! even though i wont be able to watch (hmph) but still jiayou :D
jiayou for drills :D ahaha
ok goodbye
&loveTROMBONES; 9:40 am